We found out on Sunday that our childhood friend, Ray Manhart died today on Friday. Ray had lung cancer and was going through chemo/radiation. He was doing well in spite of losing his 20 year old son last year to suicide. Last year we went to his son's funeral - that was hard - losing your only child to suicide is a hard pill to swallow. He never recovered and gave up the fight after that.
I lost it at the funeral when I saw his wife, Tina....Tina has always been someone I cared about and loved visiting with. (We live too far apart and don't see each other as often as I'd like).
Today, I'm still struggling - with the saddness, the loss and thinking somehow we could of done something more, been there more or something...I should know too well that kind of head game is awful to play and living in the what-ifs is not somewhere to go.
Ray - I hope you are in no more pain and are in the arms of God and Jesus and that you are with little Ray.
We love you and will miss you dearly.
1964-2010 Raymond Manhart, Standish, MI